yamanai ame da neeee

Thursday, July 31, 2008

today, we went to winnie's house to bid.
then we talked crap till 7 haah laughed like a mad hyena.
so fun.

the thing is. i've been losing sleep.

i miss my friends....

im so tired.

haiiiiiiii.
haha i feel so stupid feeling like im the only one.
when clearly, i'm not.
do people consider that actually there's more going on below the surface of small talk and complains?
i doubt it. no i don't. people know, but people refuse to care.
who wants to open the old rotting can of worms?
someone who cares enough to do it? like who, parents?
because we are all so wrapped up in ourselves. maybe if i make the first move. maybe if i talk about it? maybe if i stop assuming that friends are supposed to understand and not restrict.
have you ever felt like, the more you know someone, the more conscious you feel in front of the person? so ironic right. wth.

10:22 PM

shit
Sunday, July 27, 2008

i can't believe i'm agonising over washing the toilet.
i absolutely refuse to do it.
ZETTAI. haha.

i rewatched tego's skiiing shit and i laughed like mad.
again. hahahahaahahah.
i laughed so hard i thought my head was gna burst.

anw, today i broke my record. woke up at 1030. i think.
guess i had another stupid dream....
it was just a bad dream. i think it was war time.
anw the short of it was that ppl were trying to kill us and the gun i had was tiny when they were carrying like M14s and bazookas. the trigger was rusty and couldn't budge. and i got shot in the stomach (by a bazooka, but strangely the wound was the size of a mosquito bite, and it didn't hurt). the big malay women who shot me reminded me strongly of mdm mas =O.

in the end, i can't figure out if its a good dream or a bad one.
but haha the fear that the army shits caused were so palpable,
i woke with my heart beating like i've just ran my 2.4.

5:52 PM

Friday, July 25, 2008

busy week.
wednesday, went back to innova with liz to collect cert. hahaha visited P1-2. and GUESS WHAT. there were still traces of 33a there. hahahaha! i think they couldn't get rid of the writings on the green board cause the chalk refuses to come off hehe. took many many many pictures and had a good time. oh it was fried day so of course we had fried food. haha ended up spending almost the entire day reminiscing and missing our classmates.
saw ms shen who is heavily pregnant HAHA. gowri, daniel lee and mr koh came and talked to us!

aft, rushed to amk to meet my mama to get her a phone and then went to buy tdk tickets (yes i'm watching it again). it was only 6 and the 730 slot was filling fast alr. amazing. only seats from front 3 rows left! ok then went back to my granny's house for dinner, then went back to amk to meet yanni for tdk! whoohoo. of course, it was still good. altho i was damnnnnnn tired. haha but yay. yay to heath ledger. and batman! who is so hot. hahah.

ytd, it was diana's house!
went there to indulge in jstuff. hahaah we made lunch and dinner ourselves also. so exciting.
anywy i think we were laughing to loudly everyone could hear us. kurosagi was okkkkkk i didn't understand most of it haha! whatever la.
TROPHY IS SO ADORABLE.
SO cute. i wanted to nab her home :D
thats diana's dog.
it was a good day. we got so addicted to the videos that we went to winnie's house to continue after that pls! ah diana you're going back alr :( we should have done this more hahahaha. maybe next time. november right! YES. november.

november is a good month. everyone's coming back!!!!

anw, i just finished GoF. again. i think for the 9th time. hahahahahaha.
shuduan got me missing hp.
i think my eyes are abit swollen right now... just finished sobbing abt cedric.
CEDRIC. WHY. WHY DID YOU DIE.
ok, a quote.
'Remember Cedric. Remember, if the time should come when you have to make the choice between what is right, and what is easy, remember what happened to a boy who was good, and kind, and brave, because he strayed across the path of Lord Voldemort. Remember Cedric Diggory.'

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is it worth turning ugly to make someone have a taste of they're own medicine?
haha too bad, you already did.

1:37 PM

eee.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008

i feel so eew writing it down, but i dreamt that my grandad died :/
omg. argh. so i went to look at the meanings of all the things that happened.
is it true huh. haha quite i think.. esp the death part.. i dunno...
anw i cried like mad and woke up with my eyes swollen. haha.

Strangulation/lack of air/trouble breathing
The dreamer is standing in her own way, either consciously or unconsciously keeping herself from attaining her own dreams due to fear, which can manifest as extreme caution. Look to other symbols in the dream to judge how the dreamer can release herself from that fear.

Grandfather
A grandfather also represents knowledge and wisdom, but with a touch of authority and tradition thrown in.

Death
1. An imminent transition, perhaps a move, or change of job or lover.
2. An impending death in the world of the dreamer - usually a relative, friend, or admired public figure. The dreamer's death, however, is never shown.
3. The need for change in some department of the dreamer's life.

3:27 PM

yay
Sunday, July 20, 2008

these two are my aussie bound friends.
with shuduan, near our favourite aunty in school, bookshop aunty. haha i rly dunno what we were trying to do. were we rly trying to see if we can fit behind the pillar?! jhaha omg dumb shit.
with delia, omg i rmb. we were trying to rush pw shit. hahahah with your funny laptop with the camera that helped pass so much time and distracted us so badly at pw sessions. aw.
and, i realise, i dont have a picture with you laopo!
maybe odac ones, i go find next time.
and and i don't have a picture with kristy. hahaha maybe cause i was always running away from her :O
anws, i'm having serious attack nostalgia now.

shuduan this is all your fault haha

7:12 PM

agent of chaos
Friday, July 18, 2008

omg i watched dark knight ytd. YES IT WAS SO GOOD.
more meaning then i expected, much more action...
it wasn't overrated afterall!
and, i'm so proud of heath ledger. srsly. he was freaky.
WHY SO SERIOUS.
haha omg he was DAMNNNN scary. im squirming at everything he does.

anw, many things have happened this pass week...
we, jgossipers have been meeting every tuesday to gossip and talk rot at stnicks till really really late.. and we've been irritating the night study people. haha oops
last friday, we had 4UNITY REUNION! yay.
i love 4 u. hahaha.. seen some ppl i havent seen for like 2.5 yrs even tho we meet every year.. like ammanda, joanne..
we played such DUMB games. hahahah laughed and had soo much fun.
oh then after that, we didnt feel like gg home, so we went to starbucks.. sat there awhile until 12plus? played bridge. hahah so fun.
then we got addicted, so we shifted to charissa's house to play even more.
we played the ENTIRE night. betty, charissa, toy, winnie and i.
bridge, monopoly, dai dee. hahahaha until we all fell asleep at ard.. 6?
WINNIE SLEEP TALKED Hahahahahhahaha. smth about her cards being very lousy even tho we weren't playing anymore. hahahahah! damn funny.

ok anw, then, ytd, went to send delia and marian off super early in the morning..
omg.. so sad. ahhhhhhh i made delia smth, BUT I FORGOT TO GIVE HER.
i feel like killing myself pls.
nvm, send her la. ARGH. ok so aft that we went to the airport foodcourt, ate and xiaorong, weijin winnie chenji and i talked and talked and talked. from like 8+ to 11.
AND I GOT MY PRESENT! HAHAHAH THANKS GUYS. yay another sims to play with!
WHOOHOO. so exciting! winnie you havent told me who shared the present.. haha.
then winnie and i went to amk hub.. had nothing to do, so we went to watch tdk.
as i was saying, its superb. everyone shld go watch it.
ok, maybe cause my expectations we low? i don't know.. just go catch it ok.

anywayyyyyyyyyyy. tonight wendy's flight is at 1am. hahaha i think i'm gna go send her. and then stayover at the airport or smth.

life with my brother at home is more or less the same, just that now there's someone to feed the fishes other then me. yay. dont have to catch frogs and worms anymore.
ok see you ppl nxt time.
anw, my internet explorer is dying on me every 10 minutes.
uploading photos is impossible. BYE!

now i'm thinking, why should i be like others, when i was given myself.
you will only fall short. right?
isn't life tiring enough, with people doubting, pushing and blaming you for your ineptness in life.. for your not being enough. for your lack of concern, lack of sympathy, lack of tact. haha its weird, that being yourself is not enough for the world? what else can i be? its like there's an entire stack of responsibilities to others on my head, there's no time to account for myself. HAHA is that ironic. actually, no its oxymoronic. because, it truly is happening. well maybe not so much to me. but i'm seeing it everywhere, people on the news, people i don't know, people i care about.
i'm losing my train of thought.

--> 6.19pm
ah i was just looking at my class blog. and i saw all those pictures. haha the pictures that i looked SO unglam in, and that i really don't remeber taking.
man. i guess i really did enjoy my entire jc life.
ahhhh i'm missing them so much now. hhaha i feel silly that im tear-ish now.
i was looking and having this thought. that we are so cute HAHA.
everyone, go look at them here! i'm so proud of 33a now i just feel like showing them off.

3:12 PM

to extract happiness like you would a bad tooth
Saturday, July 05, 2008

IM SO HUNGRY.

:(

next post will be disneyland!!!
omg im seriously lazy.

anw im suddenly in a good mood now, cause i actually like kat-tun's new album
HAHAHAHAH. quite nice leh!!! i think i will slowly like it more and more..
SIX SENSE IS THE BEST. hshaha. SO nice.
oh course i'm not forgetting NEWS.
got the many many songs from winnie and i think i still love summertime the best.
i actually can sing the entire song now can! (almost)
I'M GOOD, I KNOW.

so now, its saturday.. and i only know tt cause there are no shows on tv.
tuesday meeting diana winnie and HOPEFULLY matong. eh matong come la.
i realise your qoo bottle is still with me.

i'm feeling neglected, no one asked me about dinner. HAHA. i wonder what i shall eat for dinner.. i srsly cannot wait till my dad comes back (which is.. 9?) i will die by then.. alright maggi mee it is then!

this is a summer time~

i realise,
if we want to be happy we can extract joy out of every small thing.
i'm surprisingly high after realising i like queen of pirates (kattun's album).
haha.

oh i didn't only slack today.
i packed half my table, folded the clothes and ironed abit.
man i'm good.

ah. and it only just came to me, i didn't wish jin and massu ytd!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAKANISHI JIN and

MASUDA ~the hero~ TAKAHISA!

(this is what he calls himself ok)
hahahahah may you guys grow handsomer and handsomer everyday...
my wish for jin is that he becomes a better person HAHA.
and for massu, who is already very perfect in my eyes, i wish you more popularity!
yay. i hope they had a great time ytd.
oh ya, the orange is for my massu. hahahahha (note my) his fav colour :)

i got 434yen left over of coins from japan :/

--> 8.00pm/
whoohoo there's fireworks at my house now.
HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!

6:49 PM

whats happening?
Friday, July 04, 2008

everyone is acting stupidly.
first my mum, then my BROTHER.

hahaha i think its called action and reaction.
funny.

12:26 PM

JAPAN 4.
Thursday, July 03, 2008

YOO.
i've stopped work this monday, so now i'm just slacking at home everyday.
i don't know if today is thursday or wednesday
omg.what i do everyday:
play diablo
exercise when i feel like it
eat
sleep
watch shows
do housework

get nervous about uni
anw, 4th day in jpn. FREE DAY!!! shibuya and harajuku :) it was really like shop till i drop pls. buy and buy and buy x10. DAMN FUN. altho the crowd almost killed me.

Don't know if the picture is clear enough.. but its ppl as far as the eye can see.(im so sorry the picture refuses to turn!!!! omg hahaha)

there were ppl advertising they're shops ALL OVER. this is one of them. hahaha

we saw loads of johnnys EVERYWHERE. hahaha

kat-tun's lip gloss.

NEWS' Russ K (there was the rest also but i didn't take la)

kame in some dunno what (can't rmb) advert. some clothing la.

arashi's AU advert. they were all over pls. hahaha.. winnie had such great fun.

then of course there was tegomass's aiaigasa advert!! super far away i zoom like mad

from harajuku we walked to shibuya.. on the way was NHK. ghahaha of course we had to go in.. this is where they filmed so many shows ok! so cool. this is music station's set.

this was the set for that olden day show maki and chiaki were filming. haha. we could see the sets from on top.. there was this window thing. they weren't filming at that time.. unfortunately. oh i wasn't supposed to take photo. haha but aiyah.

maki's and chiaki's signature.

did you all watch this cartoon last time!!!! omg! I MISS IT. hahaha it was on channel 8 long before kids central came abt. oh man!

PEPPER LUNCH!!! singapore's one is NOTHING compared to japan's one. its was sooo nice. it was good. like seriously. i can still rmb how it taste like hahahaha

LOOK AT THAT. tell me where you can find it in singapore. tell me. ah i miss japan.

shibuya. actually, it was qt sad tt we were tired out and it was SO crowded. we weren't in the mood to shop.. but omg. it is still cool. this is the busiest crossing! the one that has an adjacent crossing.

at this huge cd shop, we saw an entire johnnys segment. ahaha. of course there was a small space for kat-tun cause the album just came out. anw, the shop was amazing. the staff actually had HAND WRITTEN COMMENTRIES for almost every album..

oh we saw this. eeee. can you bare to pierce yourself..... =0

on the train ride back.. a grp of ladies in kimonos! omg its like they are so graceful i can't bare to call them aunties. and they look so comfortable and not at all out of place.. so cool.

on the bus to aiba's restaurant... the bus fares. hahaha they write children as XIAO REN. damn cute. doesn't it mean bad person to us..

dinner at AIBA'S RESTAURANT. ok his mum's. but anw, its cool that he stays upstairs. anw we saw all they're signatures! haha...

there's this book thing you can write in to leave a msg to aiba. this is winnie writing. OMG winnie you're a bad model.. you were laughing!! HAHA.

ok i shall make this picture bigger so you all can see. i'm damn bad.. since i dont even like arashi much less aiba. i pretended i'm a fan.. i talked abt kat-tun HAHAHAHAH. i know i'm mean but whatever.. i looked, i'm the ONLY ONE in the entire book. AHA.

they sold chinese food. i tell you, the prawn was CRUNCHY. super fresh and damn tasty.

oh we had xiao long bao too. we ate 2 before realising we didn't take pictures. haha! ahh everything was nice! it was like a 6 course meal la.. so got a lot of things. hahah lazy to post everything.ah its so late and i havent' had dinner leh. wah lao this is making me damn hungry.

on the way to the bus stop, we saw someone who looked like aiba that we suspected was aiba's brother. ghahahaha. we stood there and stared at him until he disappeared into the buildings. we concluded he wasn't cause he didn't walk in the direction of the shop. BUT THEN now tt i think abt it, he might have been going to the mart to buy stuff lohh winnie. hahaha i guess we will never know.

THINGS OF THE DAY! HAHAHAH. i think i spend so much money. look at the News and Kat-tun things from the johnnys shop.. and my beloved bag! and a lot of pouches and rubbish from diaso :)

8:52 PM